Here I Am

WOW! I knew that it had been a long time since I had posted anything but I definitely did not realize that it had been over a YEAR! Considering that when I originally created this blog, I was dealing with quite a bit and was using it as a way to process all of the emotions and trials in my life, no big issues in the last year that needed that much thought means that the last year has been pretty damn good if I do say so myself! I already knew how to give everything to God, but I learned how to truly let go. Not that things don't still get to me, they do, but no longer in the way where they hang on forever.

In the last year, I have become a more confident person, a more relaxed person, a more peaceful person, a happier person. And on top of all of that, I officially earned my doctorate!

How's that for a badass year?

xoxo

What I Want

At some point, we re-evaluate our lives - if you are me, this happens on nearly a daily basis. Recently, I've been finding a lot of things that I want that I don't currently have, and I think I've always wanted them. So here is the beginning of the list of things that, at 25, I want:

1. I want to read a book more than just on school breaks.

2. I want to cook.

3. I want to have the time to go to the gym 3 - 5 nights a week - and actually go.

4. I want to go grocery shopping with my roommates.

5. I want to spend Friday afternoons with my mom.

6. I want someone to love me, but I also want them to be willing to work and grow with me. Like an old school pop song, "I want [them] to want me."

7. I want to get a full night's sleep every night.

8. I want to watch TV.

9. I want to go to Happy Hour with my girl friends.

10. I want to clean my apartment. (Well, I want a clean apartment, which means that I want time to clean it...not really that I want to do the cleaning.)

11. I want time to talk to my best friends and keep in touch.

12. I want to hang out with my sister.

13. I want to be able to work and come home, and have work stay at work.

14. I want to make another quilt.

15. I want to work on my scrapbooks.

16. I want to be able to disconnect from the world for an entire week and not have some disaster to fix.

17. I want to walk my [parent's] dogs.

18. I want to go for a run.

19. I want to break in my climbing shoes.

20. I want to be able to sit for 5 minutes, and truly feel like I can and not have to worry about everything else I have to do.

What do you want?

Pets

These are my dogs. I should clarify, they are my parent's dogs technically, and I love them dearly. But this blog is sort of about the benefits of not having a dog....sort of.

I am pet sitting this weekend - and I love dogs, so I am doing this quite happily, but it really puts a damper on your life. I mean, cats can more-or-less take care of themselves, but dogs need a lot of attention, they need to be fed on time, they need to be walked, and taken to the vet... I love dogs and I'm sure I will have one some day, but I am glad that today is not that day and that I can just go home and play with these two lovely goldens without the responsibility of taking care of them.

In this time of my life where my friends are starting to get pets, and get married, and the beginning of the babies stage is upon us - I have to say, that I am not ready for any of that. Some times I just eat roasted veggies....for a whole meal...and sometimes I eat a whole bag of popcorn for dinner. I'm still at a place where I enjoy my freedom and I don't want a pet (or God-forbid, a child) to take care of when there are days that I barely can take care of myself, I'm so busy.

Some day I will have the dogs and the kids and the husband, but for now, I will enjoy my freedom.