What It Means to Be in a Sorority

This blog hit the nail on the head in a way that I never could. If you have never been in a sorority or fraternity, you might never understand. But just know, that its the best decision that we have ever made.

Young

"Young"

Looking back now, well it makes me laugh 

We were growin our hair, we were cuttin' class 

Knew it all already, there was nothing to learn 

We were strikin' matches just to watch 'em burn 

Listen to our music just a little too loud 

We were hangin' in there with the outcast crowd 

Headin' to the rapids with some discount beer 

It was a long train tussle but we had no fear. 

Man I don't know, where the time goes 

But It sure goes fast, just like that 

We were wanna be rebels who didn't have a clue 

With our Rock n' roll T-shirts, and our typically bad attitudes 

Had no excuses for the things that we'd done 

We were brave, we were crazy, we were mostly

Young 

Talked a good game when we were out with the guys 

But in the back seat we were awkward and shy 

Girls were a mystery that we couldn't explain 

And I guess there are some things that are never gonna change 

Man I don't know, where the time goes 

But It sure goes fast, just like that 

We were wanna be rebels who didn't have a clue 

With our Rock n' roll T-shirts, and our typically bad attitudes 

Had no excuses for the things that we'd done 

We were brave, we were crazy, we were mostly

Young 

Young, Young, Yeah Wishin' we were older 

Young, Hey I wish it wasn't over 

                        Man I don't know, where the time goes 
                           But It sure goes fast, just like that 
                  We were wanna be rebels who didn't have a clue 
          With our Rock n' roll T-shirts, and our typically bad attitudes 
                     Had no excuses for the things that we'd done 
                   We were brave, we were crazy, we were mostly
                                                Young 
                Young, Hey wishin' we were older, wish it wasn't over

Sometimes I wish I had been dumber in undergrad. I have always been old for my age. (Yes, I know that sounds pompous and unrealistic, but I actually have been told that before.) But what I found was that I was only older in some ways. Overall, I was probably just as young as everyone else. But I sometimes I wish I had been dumber (and younger) in undergrad because maybe I would be more confident now. But not only that, there are many times now that I wish I could just be crazy and party and not care one bit. But I can't. Because that's not me. I care a lot, I'm not crazy, and I will never be a true party-animal. But that doesn't mean that there isn't a small part in me that would like that. It just seems easier. But then again, we all want what we can't have.

Little Bit of Everything

"Little Bit Of Everything"

I wish I could take a cab down to the creek
And hang a disco ball from an old oak tree
Smoke and drink once in a while
Somehow it'd be good for me
I want a cool chick that'll cook for me
But'll dance on the bar in her tan bare feet
And do what I want when I want and she'll do it with me

I don't need too much of nothing
I just wanna sing a little chill song
Get my groove on
Pour something strong
Down in my drink
Oh, I know
That I don't need a whole lot of anything
I just want a little bit of everything
Na na na na, na na na na
I just want a little bit of everything
Na na na na, na na na na

Now I don't need a garage full of cars
But I'll take a whole box of Cuban cigars
And I'll smoke 'em nice and slow
Like they were good for me
Don't need a ranch or a big piece of land
But I like to get a little bit of dirt on my hands
A big ole couch in a big ole room
Still feels lonely when it's just you
Yes it does

I don't need too much of nothing
I just wanna sing a little chill song
Get my groove on
Pour something strong
Down in my drink
Oh, I know
That I don't need a whole lot of anything
I just want a little bit of everything
Na na na na, na na na na

A little bit of everything
Under the sun
So, when I kick back basking in it
I'll be OK with what I've done
Still having fun

Cause I don't need too much of nothing
I just wanna sing a little chill song
Get my groove on
Pour something strong
Down in my drink
Oh, I know
That I don't need a whole lot of anything
I just want a little bit of everything
Na na na na, na na na na
I just want a little bit of everything
Na na na na, na na na na
I just want a little bit of everything
Yeah yea yea
Whoa, whoa, oh yeah

Now I don't know about you, but I want to be happy. That's all I want. I have spent the majority of the last 2 years being unhappy, and that's not ok with me. Now, on some level - it's life, and you put your big girl panties on and get over it. But 2 years?! I think that's excessive. But you know what? After everything that's happened to me, I have no good advice. I can only parrot what has come before me: 

"Only time will tell."

"Time heals all hurts."

Sometimes the only thing you can do is to process and wait. Wait until something better shows up. Wait until God is sure that you have learned whatever lesson He wants you to have learned. And sometimes...no, all the time, that is exceedingly frustrating. But maybe part of the lesson is patience? That is the only reason that I can come up with....but if you have a different idea, let me know.

We all just want to be happy. And, with time, we will be.

Trust

My tea told me this today. I seem to have a habit of finding tea with words of wisdom on them. Some extra wisdom never hurt anybody.

This struck me because I have this issue. The first being that I have to work with someone that I don't really trust. (Disclaimer, this has nothing to do with their ability to do their job or with their personality and I know they care deeply.) But I still don't trust them. I don't trust them to deal with any situation like an adult should - and it makes my life a lot harder. 

No one needs people around who make your life harder - but when your soul is already not at peace because of everything else in your life, this issue is the one that can surface as the most important - even when in the long run, it's probably the least important.

Trust that people will act like adults, do their job, not hurt you, be there when you need them....those are all things that we need to be confident in in order to live a peaceful life. When one of those is out of alignment, your whole person is off-kilter. The challenge then is to be the adult - to deal with each situation head-on and in the most graceful way possible. Things get better always, but sometimes it just takes awhile, a lot of hard work, and a lot of re-centering, to get yourself there.

Peace Be With You.

Pets

These are my dogs. I should clarify, they are my parent's dogs technically, and I love them dearly. But this blog is sort of about the benefits of not having a dog....sort of.

I am pet sitting this weekend - and I love dogs, so I am doing this quite happily, but it really puts a damper on your life. I mean, cats can more-or-less take care of themselves, but dogs need a lot of attention, they need to be fed on time, they need to be walked, and taken to the vet... I love dogs and I'm sure I will have one some day, but I am glad that today is not that day and that I can just go home and play with these two lovely goldens without the responsibility of taking care of them.

In this time of my life where my friends are starting to get pets, and get married, and the beginning of the babies stage is upon us - I have to say, that I am not ready for any of that. Some times I just eat roasted veggies....for a whole meal...and sometimes I eat a whole bag of popcorn for dinner. I'm still at a place where I enjoy my freedom and I don't want a pet (or God-forbid, a child) to take care of when there are days that I barely can take care of myself, I'm so busy.

Some day I will have the dogs and the kids and the husband, but for now, I will enjoy my freedom.