Have you ever heard the quote "Even if you are on the right track, you will get run over if you just sit there?" Well this is how I feel recently, and not in the positive sense, but in the sense that I'm on the right track but just sitting there, hoping I don't get run over. I'm somewhere in limbo between where I am and where I am going. I'm in a waiting place like in that Dr Seuss book - waiting for a train to come, a car to go, the wind to blow, the mail to come...or something along those lines. Now, I am ending my last semester of classwork and starting rotations here in about three weeks, and how I feel right now is about how I felt senior year of undergrad. That I am on the right track and yet not going anywhere.
It is such a weird feeling when you know that you have made the right choice with your life, so where does it come from? That is the question that I would like answered. Does it come from being in a place where I am waiting? Or does it come from something that's missing? I have not been able to figure that out and I wish I knew the answer.
All I can think of is that maybe there are times along your path where you stop dead or even go backwards. And you can't figure out why you have stopped or even how to get going again. This is not necessarily a failure, it is just a redirecting. But of what kind, I wish I knew...
